missing yuu

Abah,
nina rindu abah sgt2... : ( abah ap kaba? shat? mesty abah shat kn?
abah ta rindu kami ke??
kami kt cni rindu abah sgt2....
mama lagy rindu... :'( mama jarang tunjuk tp nina twu mama sunyi...mama rindu abah...
mama slalu je nangis sowg2 dlm blik...
so nina ta bg mama duk sowg2...
tamo mama sedeyh2....abah mesty sedeyh kn tgk mama sedeyh2?

humm....
da 5 years abah pegy...it seems lyke just yesterday... i still remember how it happens...
every single thing....tapi tapee...at least abah ta suffer...abah pegy relaks je kn?
nina redha...

but....
kadang2 nina just rindu...sgt2 rindu...
i just wish i chud have just 5 min na jmpe dgn abah...
pelok cium abah....
ya Allah....hw i wish.....
nina ad mcm2 na cite kt abah....
nina rindu abah usap kpl nina ble raye....

u missed my graduation day...
my very special day... nina twu abah mesty bangga kn abah?
uve always did.....u were so proud of us ur childrens...even ta larh besa mne pown achievement kitorg tue...tapee u were proud...
m glad....
now nina smbung degree...pown of cuz u will be proud...

well, 1 thing 4 sure m very proud 2 have a father lyke u Abah.... :)
nina doakan Abah bahagia kat sna... :)
skali skala dtg larh jenguk kami...
dlm mimpi pown tapee...
as long as nina twu abah happy...
iloveyou Abah~

touched

he did that very smtg that really totally touched my heart...
Abah, nina syg dye...
hope Abah oukayh?
nina yaqeen dye bleyh jg nina...
insyaAllah....

if Abah ad lagy kt cni dgn nina mesty Abah suke dye...
:)
mama pown da alhamdulillah dpt trime...
k.zyra lagy suke..
Abah doakan nina kayh...
:)

yahp! anak Abah neyh suda besa...
heheh....

screwed..... :(

tersangat larh hell nyeee oukayh...
cane neyh???
tulun2...
wat to do?
pwomish larh pas ry ta bt hal da...
plish3....
eyh??

shud i?

na jd cam dlu...
na cr cam dye...
tamo hurt2 lagy...
penx??

my story

na tawu ta???
suddenly aq tengat kisah lalu...eceh! lempang~
no, seriusly aq tengat ouh...i mean aq yg dlu...
aq yg tomboy,aq yg pengkid....
mesty kowg ta caye kn???
yahp! m once a tomboy....once a pengkid....wats d diff between tomboy & pengkid?
according to my understanding...
tomboy is a girl which dress up lyke a boy...
pengkid is a girl who dress up lyke a girl & lyke girls...
me?
i was once both...

i am so used to short hair...y?well, since i ws in primary skool which is a Chinese skool i hv 2 keep my hair short..y? hell yah y? idk...weird law...
when i was in form 3, i joined d taekwondo club...
since then i jd makin kasar n i usually will dress up lyke boys do...
baggy pants, dc shoes...aq mnat skate, hip hop n blablabla....
watever so on larh.. my hair mmg sgt2 short...
uish! funny ouh..

anyway, tht was my "tomboy" xperience...at that tym i dun lyke boys....
haha...typical kn?
then msuk form 1 konon2 na berubah...i start simpan rmbut pjg, pkai bj kurung...
tp jap je...2 3 month after that... tgn da rimas...kpl asek gatal...alasan tanak rmbut pjg...
pastu pakse mama bwk pegy ptg...
kali neyh ta pendek sgt cuz mama da warning awal2 if na ptg taleyh pendek...
oukayh bt still i manage 2 make it look boyish...
shit!
pastu aq rapat dgn these 2 tomboy jgk, chinese n indian...
yg chinese tu mmg da kire hardcore larh....
i oukayh lg beb...dye da ad aweks...
huhuw...

1 day dorg cabar aq

dorg : i dare u tackle d new girl.....
me : korg igt aq lesbo ke?
dorg : takot eyh?
me : shit! oukayh deal!

fyi aq mmg sgt pantang dcabar...dlu larh...
aq pown try my luck...last2 dpt....!
hell ouh!tht girl sgt2 senang... i mean she agreed ble aq ajak couple...
my feeling at tht tym sgt strange...seriusly....
after few month dye apply jd pengawas, so aq cam chill jela...
tp makin hari dye makin poyo....
shit again!
she is so not my type anymore! m done wif u gurl....

pastu konon2 frust ar....sedeyh2...dorg knlkn aq dgn mne2 gurl tah...
tp aq tanak...mb cuz aq still trauma kowt...ceyh! trauma ap kaw???
then few month later ad plak sowg gurl neyh bwu msuk skool...
bleyh thn ar...so aq pown try luck lg...
dpt jgk....wuhuuuu! :)) budget handsome plak da.....
tp ta lme cuz aq dpt twu dye da ad pengkid....shit!
1st tym ptus cuz org ke-3....frust gyla larh....
then aq decide na single.........