knp?

terkejot beruk dgr pengakuan dr mulut mama...
pengakuan ap?biar larh ianya mnjadi sebahagian dr aq jee....bak kate ct "biarlah rahsia"...
jujurnye aq mmg ta sangka...apatah lagy mintak benda2 neyh jd....andai bisa waktu diputar kembali.....eceh! serius! aq tanak troskan....
bukan sbb ap aq takot na hadapi langkah seterusnye...
aq maseh blaja bertatih....buntu...

aq bertuah punye kakak2 yg prihatin....mereka byk bantu mama....byk bantu aq.... eventho.....
aq just a.......hummmmm....tapeee larh....aq syukur sgt2... thank u Allah.....
still aq hanya mampu doa & usaha....yg laen2 aq beserah jee....
mudah2han makbul hendaknye....ameen~

tibe2 selera aq yg dlu bkn maen besa skunk da kurang...& makin kurang everyday....
stress mungkin.....dgn study lagy....aq suke study....aq suke buku......psycho kn?
tp kdg2 sikap org sekeliling yg btkan ianya jd ta seronok.....demam aq na lyn perangai2 mereka....
na bt cane aq hidup bkn sorg jee....

rumah neyh sunyi....sunyi sgt bile tade org...aq ta saba na tggu hari 2....tym 2 mesty meriah mesty rmai org dtg.....best2!

open up ur eys n tk a look

oukayh neyh na menyatakan ketidakpuasan haty neyh...ai tgh berkobar2 na study na target baek punye last2 u bt camtu plak...haiiiiii...knp eyh u camtu?u pena ta bukak mate luas2 tgk keliling u?
mb ad jee ppl yg benci u......look,i bkn na sgt ckp sal u tp i na ckp gak cuz tiz is nt d 1st tym u bt cani....ouh hell sgt2.....rase cam na lempang jee ouh....
knp? u igt sume org kaya cam u eyh? u igt sume org yg blaja kt cni anak tan sri? anak datuk?
cmon! alert sket....i twu pangkat u tggi tp ble u ta respect student u ur title tu langsung tade makne pd kami....pastu racist plak...apkes? u bkn budak2 12 thn yg ta fhm dunia...i think u da ckup matang tuk twu abt all this....so tlg larh be considerate.... bleyh kn? at least u shud try....
make use of ur DR to make us want to b in ur cluz n bkn sebab terpaksa na ngadap muke u yg ta pena senyum tu....
ya Allah byk da dose aq ckp sal dye...
so oukayh i dun care if u ta suke ai but this matter concern my study so hell yah i hv to care...
shit!

my beloved

mereka neyh ai sayang....sayla jee yg tade...

da lame rasenye ta cite sal sahabat2 ai yg sgt2 disayangi....
heheh....my dearest my luvly gurls....
dorang larh tmpat ai share mcm2....
da lame ta jumpe....rinduuuuu sgt2....
bukan tanak jumpe tp.....
hummmm....
tapee larh naty2 jee ai xplain knp....
dorang neyh mmg best....kami knl around almost 2 yrs da....


neyh tym kami pegy langkawee.... bucuk dgn meen jee tade...

tp rase mcm da knl lameeeee sgt....


neyh tym kami mude2....eceh!


rapat kowt...
but now masing2 da bz....
ad yg sambung study, ad yg bz keje...
so da tade mase na hang out mcm dlu2...
kalau jmpe dorang neyh mesty happening gyla....
kecoh larh mne2 tmpat yg ktorg lepaq uh....


we have our own nickname.....

shazmin kami pggil sweety tp jarang larh....
athirah @ baby.....
shahira @ manjew......
shahirah@ bucuk.......
sayla@ chomey.......
as fo me dorang pggil yunk....

heheh...best ouh ad org sayang.....sukeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
comel kn nickname kami?

anyway, dorang larh sahabat ai dunai akhirat....
ameen~

so scweet

tadi kan......terjadi satu insiden yg amat2 larh cute.....
na twu ap jd?
cani, td kami kuar mkn2...cuz lame sgguh larh tidak berketemuan(ad ke perkataan neyh?)
pastu tgh tggu mkanan smpai dye duk pndang2 ai...
ish, suke taw bt ai malu2....
pastu tibe2 dye ckp.......

"marry me.....?"
i was lyke huh? tros tergamam tersentap terkedu....

"wat?"

then dye ckp lagy...

"marry me.......?"
ya Allah my heart was beatin hell laju & i dun hv anytg 2 say....

"r u proposing me?"

see, klaka btol soalan....mmg tacaye sgguh dye na ckp camtu....adoiiila....

& 3rd trial.....

"yes,marry me..................................?"

bru larh ai tersedar & say.....

"i will....."

vewy d scweet kn?holoh holoh holoh......
blushing*
seriusly rase mcm tacaye jee....
dlu2 tgk tv cite omputih duk proposed2 gurl ai pown teringin....
alarh, berangan gedik2 jee....

haty ini

rase na menagis sangat2 neyh...
rase na kuar dr sume2 neyh...
rase da tanak troskan....
aq rase mcm dye saje na ambek kesempatan....
take me 4granted....
yeke?
klau btol....ya Allah....
terpulang larh pd yg punya bdn...
aq hambaMu yg lemah...
aq redha....