mama's hope...

mama hope fo me to move back in with her...... she wants to see me every mownink.... wants to have me near always... ya Allah, m down on my knees prayin fo her happiness,fo her gud health..... fo her to have no worries at all..... m willing to give up my all just fo her.... m willing to give up my happiness fo her.... m willing to even die fo her... u know my heart ya Allah.... u know that m changing fo gud... ya Allah,she is d only 1 i have... d only 1 i chud count on.....

sweetheart, hear me out please.....this is fo u.... mama already luv u as her own... please please please dun ever hurt her.... ill kill u if that happen... i swear.... she is my life..... she wants us to be together.... she is counting on u...us.... she is not forcing us or anything.... she just wants d best fo me & she can see that u r d best.... baby....we need u....

& iloveyou...i really do..

aku lemas aku rimas.....
eceh! rimas plak ko kn...
dush2!haha
seriusly i do....
dlu ko mntak2, now ko nyesal plak...
bende neyh terkesan,
rase na pengsan,
timbul rase kesian....
hopefully aq ta perasan...
hah! da cam pantun 4 kerat plak da...

lyke mama always say dun wish fo smtg tht ure nt sure of....
naty ko dpt ko nyesal....
yer2,timbul penyesalan d haty neyh...

messed up

when ure messed up just put ur heads up & look out d window & smile......
have faith in Him....

everything happens fo a reason.....

haiyak! wacha!

dush! dush! haiyak! wachaaaaaaaaa!............
adoiii....asal larh cam hell ku rase kn?
assignment,presentation,test,quiz gyla byk punyeeeeee ouh!....
kawmenga!
serius cam ta ckup hours sehary...
now tgh struggle bt assignment fo human comm...
i lyke d subject but this is too much....
m sorry miss zeta...i lyke u but i just dun lyke d idea of assignment presentation bagai....
SORRY!!! eceh! pehal lu?lempang~
serius weyh...
slide dye cam hell gyla byk jee....
5 jee ckup ta???
hahaha~
oukies, maw cont keje ku...
daaa~

kerisawan~

kerisawan yg amat kayh...bkn sawan...
td text dgn mama....
it goes lyke tiz

mama : da hbs class?
me : da ma
mama : da mkn?
me : blom...kejap lagy...mama mkn da?
mama : mama bru blk klinik ada saket sikit

sepantas kilat i call!....
darah da naek ke muke oukayh...nafas da ta tentu...
masyaallah...Dye jee twu prasaan i tym neyh...
shivering all over...na nangis pown ad....

me : mama oukayh ke?saket ap?
mama : tade ap, alergik jee..mkn ap tah mulut bengkak...
me : pegy clinic sorg ke?
mama :ta dgn sis zyra...

pas letak istighfar pjg...
sgguh aq ta larat na hadap bnde2 camni....
tlg jgn...
satu2nyee harapan aq....tlg jgn ambik dye dlu....
:"(

nuffnang?

oukayh, i mmg sgt sukeeee bace blog....
pastu if blog yg best2 tuh mesty ad nuffnang?
apekenametah...
seriusly na twu ap bnde tuh?
sronok2 jee mereke2 dpt income...saye pown na juge....!
uish kamoo neyh anyra if sal duet jee mesty teruje kn?
hahaha...sape yg tasuke na dpt duet?
habaq mai sket....
mmg ta larh kn?
anyway if sape2 yg baek haty na story xplain kt i sal nuffnang tue sgt larh dialu-alukan...

temporary~

a temporary happiness......
u know when u get bored of smtg?
u tend to go n search for smtg else...
so called d substitute for watever u have now...
seriously it does work.....bt lyke i said....temporarily....
it does not lasts forever lyke we hope...
it just not permanent...
easy come easy go ryte?
so if u r d 1 who r dying to search for temporary bitchy excitement then my advise......
go for it but be xtra ready to get burn...
gt wat i mean???
do it then tell me how was it yah!

xoxoxoxo

feverish

na raye DEMAM....
hbs raye DEMAM....
esok ku ad 3 cluz from mownink smpai ptg....
usih...menguji kekuatan sgguh....
tapeee.....
mb petanda?

heartless me...

heartless kah aq??
how chud u say that to me...
if aq heartless aq ta risaw sal kamoo...
iskkk...
geramm btol ble pk...
tp tapee...
redha jela...
kamoo bleyh pk ap jee yg kamoo nak...
as fo me,
imma cont wt m doin...
sedeyh :(

raye.....

ap korg bt tym raye???
open house? tgk wyg?
ke dduk uma tgk tv??

as fo me duk uma then layan owg dtg beraye...
best gak larh....
meriah2....
meh larh dtg umah...
kami ta bt open hs tiz year..... :(

dtg eyh...
b4 dtg gtaw dlu...
at least bleyh get ready...
make up dlu....
santek2 comey2 dlu....
mwahahahahah~

no larh...
na msk2....
na kemas2 uma....
na jd contoh perempuan melayu terakhir....perasan!
lempang!

sum1 i knw

seriusly i havent meet sum1 lyke her b4...

so ego bt at d same tym she is afraid of herself....

its lyke her ego is taking over her life or smtg...

creepy!....

poor thing... :(

i see her as a young immature small kid...

trying hard to act lyke an adult...

i just dun get it...

m tryim to help bt u push me away...

saying tht i dun knw u...

yes! i dun...so tell me abt u...

let me help u...

as a fren...

ure pushing urself too hard....

u deserve to be happy...

just bcuz 1 small silly things

u gv up??

even worst u gv up on ur life???

pity....

M SORRY :(

terpikir AGAIN

ive been thinking about y people are too obses with their past?regret is gud but not all d tym...

cmon...

people change....bad to gud or mb even gud to bad....

who r us to judge???

take cr of ur own shit b4 u messing with other peeps life...

or worst UR LIFE SUCKS! deal with it.....

people chud be so weird at tyms...

i chud be weird also...

well of cuz i wanna do it my own way & with style...

haha..... :)

ouh yah!

hv it ever occurd in ur mind tht

we are thinkin too much abt d bad/awful tym we had till we 4gt to cherished n enjoy d gud tym we experince?

idk...

rather than feelin sorry fo urself y dun u get up wipe those tears n change?

its better late than never ryte?

me myself are working my ass out to changes....

seriusly i am.... :)

Eid Mubarak.. :)

Eid Mubarak people! :)

was watchin High School Musical 3 senior year....
oukayh2 u might think its a bit lame...
hey, no its not!
its lyke romeo & juliet...
so sweet oke?
troy & gabriella
they r so cute together....holoh holoh...
poyonye...
well of cuz u chud only dream of having relationship lyke tht...
its just a story sweety...
its nt real...peeps make it up....
wat d hell, enjoy while u can....

isu itu

ble aq bangkitkan isu neyh ramai ta puas haty...
sume pakat bantah....
knp weyh?
ta baek halang niyat murni sorg manusia bergelar insan bese...(wth????)
kamoo mmg saje cr nahas kn anyra??
anyway, niyat aq tulus ikhlas...
aq da tanak susakn sapew2..ececece...sile lempang~
yelarh, dlu pown aq pena je camtu..
korg chill je?
korg lepaq je?
asal now suda ta buleyh?
sedeyh... :(

lie about us?

Baby i know when we started out there were things you didn't know, but babygirl we got a lotta things we
Need to discuss i know i'm asking for allot, but just trust. you say that things gettin old sneakin'
Round creepin' and love on the low but babygurl i can't wait till' it's officially us, i can't wait to
Let them know about us.

First i tought that i could take you boy but i don't know, you told me you were gonna leave her for me
Long ago.

Eventually i will but i just gotta take it slow don't wanna break her heart, altough i gotta let her go
So baby ..


So please don't say you wanna give up.
How do i tell her that i'm fallen in love,
And i know your waiting paciently for that day,
When we no longer have to lie about us.
When i walk around all i want is your touch,
And when you call me i don't wanna hang up,
And i know i say it often but i can't wait
Till' we no longer have to lie about us.

Baby i know situation don't seem fair to us both.
But babygirl, she's an issue that i'm bout to adjust.
Don't mistake our love is ment for just us,
You are my soul, mind, body, spirit all that i know.
But babygirl i can't wait till' it's officially us, i can't
Wait to tell the world about us.

First i tought that i could take you boy but i don't know, you told you were gonna leave her for me long ago.
[Avant]
Eventually i will but i just gotta take it slow don't wanna break her heart altough, i gotta let her go
So baby ..

So babyyyyyyyy


So please don't say you wanna give up (please don't say).
How do i tell her that i'm fallen in love (oeehhh oohh).
And i know your waiting paciently for that day,
When we no longer have to lie about us (no longer have to lie).
When i walk around all i want is your touch (oeehhh oohh),
And when you call me i don't wanna hang up (baby you don't),
And i know i said it often but i can't wait
Till' we no longer have to lie about us.


Baby won't you wait just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit longer, longer (oehh yeahh)
Just a litlle bit just a litlle bit just a litlle bit longer longer (won't you wait) just a litlle bit
Just a litlle bit just a litlle bit longer longer just a litlle bit just a litlle bit just a litlle bit
Longer longer


Baby so please don't say you wanna give up,
How do i tell her that i've fallen in love (how do i tell my baby).
And i know your waiting paciently for that day,
When we no longer have to lie about us (no longer have to lie about us).
When i walk around, all i want is your touch
And when you call me i don't wanna hang up (oeehh oohh oo).
And i know i said it often but i can't wait till' we no longer have to lie about us.

So please don't say you wanna give up ,
How do i tell her that i'm fallen in love (how do i tell my baby).
And i know your waiting paciently for that day,
When we no longer have to lie about us (whoa ooooo).
When i walk around all i want is your touch,
And when you call me i don't wanna hang up.
And i know i say it often but i can't wait till' we no longer have to lie about us.


Baby won't you wait just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit, (baby) just a litlle bit longer (baby), longer
Just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit, (baby i'mma wait for you) longer, longer
(won't you wait) just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit, longer, longer (if you wait)
Just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit, just a litlle bit, longer.

demam

haih....tasuke nyer feelin cani.....
demam, body ache, sore throat...
mencik nyer!
raye na dkt da... ta shat pulee...
na raye! waaaa.....
iskkk....

explain

aq ta fhm kenapa kaw kna sibuk2 na jaja hal aq?
y r u so damn obses with my life??
knp kaw mesty na ambik twu???
i mean its nt lyke we are close to each other pown kn...
but its really bugging me when u "care" too much....
apalagy yg kaw ta puas haty neyh?
come & confront me....
watever that u r not comfy or watever with me please do say it out...
kdg2 aq cam pelik knp suddenly kaw cam beminat sgt dgn kisah hidup aq yg da lame pupus....
kisah idup aq yg ta wujud lagy...
kisah idup aq yg da jd sejarah...
its history n memory...
aq tade niyat na memalukan sesape...
jnji Dye twu & family aq twu.... done~
no more question....
& no need any answer....
suda larh....
yg suda tue suda....
kaw bahagie dgn idup kaw
biakan aq tros idup dlm dunie aq....
aq ta kacaw kaw...
aq tade kna mengena dgn kaw even......
so wats d deal????

missing yuu

Abah,
nina rindu abah sgt2... : ( abah ap kaba? shat? mesty abah shat kn?
abah ta rindu kami ke??
kami kt cni rindu abah sgt2....
mama lagy rindu... :'( mama jarang tunjuk tp nina twu mama sunyi...mama rindu abah...
mama slalu je nangis sowg2 dlm blik...
so nina ta bg mama duk sowg2...
tamo mama sedeyh2....abah mesty sedeyh kn tgk mama sedeyh2?

humm....
da 5 years abah pegy...it seems lyke just yesterday... i still remember how it happens...
every single thing....tapi tapee...at least abah ta suffer...abah pegy relaks je kn?
nina redha...

but....
kadang2 nina just rindu...sgt2 rindu...
i just wish i chud have just 5 min na jmpe dgn abah...
pelok cium abah....
ya Allah....hw i wish.....
nina ad mcm2 na cite kt abah....
nina rindu abah usap kpl nina ble raye....

u missed my graduation day...
my very special day... nina twu abah mesty bangga kn abah?
uve always did.....u were so proud of us ur childrens...even ta larh besa mne pown achievement kitorg tue...tapee u were proud...
m glad....
now nina smbung degree...pown of cuz u will be proud...

well, 1 thing 4 sure m very proud 2 have a father lyke u Abah.... :)
nina doakan Abah bahagia kat sna... :)
skali skala dtg larh jenguk kami...
dlm mimpi pown tapee...
as long as nina twu abah happy...
iloveyou Abah~

touched

he did that very smtg that really totally touched my heart...
Abah, nina syg dye...
hope Abah oukayh?
nina yaqeen dye bleyh jg nina...
insyaAllah....

if Abah ad lagy kt cni dgn nina mesty Abah suke dye...
:)
mama pown da alhamdulillah dpt trime...
k.zyra lagy suke..
Abah doakan nina kayh...
:)

yahp! anak Abah neyh suda besa...
heheh....

screwed..... :(

tersangat larh hell nyeee oukayh...
cane neyh???
tulun2...
wat to do?
pwomish larh pas ry ta bt hal da...
plish3....
eyh??

shud i?

na jd cam dlu...
na cr cam dye...
tamo hurt2 lagy...
penx??