my story

na tawu ta???
suddenly aq tengat kisah lalu...eceh! lempang~
no, seriusly aq tengat ouh...i mean aq yg dlu...
aq yg tomboy,aq yg pengkid....
mesty kowg ta caye kn???
yahp! m once a tomboy....once a pengkid....wats d diff between tomboy & pengkid?
according to my understanding...
tomboy is a girl which dress up lyke a boy...
pengkid is a girl who dress up lyke a girl & lyke girls...
me?
i was once both...

i am so used to short hair...y?well, since i ws in primary skool which is a Chinese skool i hv 2 keep my hair short..y? hell yah y? idk...weird law...
when i was in form 3, i joined d taekwondo club...
since then i jd makin kasar n i usually will dress up lyke boys do...
baggy pants, dc shoes...aq mnat skate, hip hop n blablabla....
watever so on larh.. my hair mmg sgt2 short...
uish! funny ouh..

anyway, tht was my "tomboy" xperience...at that tym i dun lyke boys....
haha...typical kn?
then msuk form 1 konon2 na berubah...i start simpan rmbut pjg, pkai bj kurung...
tp jap je...2 3 month after that... tgn da rimas...kpl asek gatal...alasan tanak rmbut pjg...
pastu pakse mama bwk pegy ptg...
kali neyh ta pendek sgt cuz mama da warning awal2 if na ptg taleyh pendek...
oukayh bt still i manage 2 make it look boyish...
shit!
pastu aq rapat dgn these 2 tomboy jgk, chinese n indian...
yg chinese tu mmg da kire hardcore larh....
i oukayh lg beb...dye da ad aweks...
huhuw...

1 day dorg cabar aq

dorg : i dare u tackle d new girl.....
me : korg igt aq lesbo ke?
dorg : takot eyh?
me : shit! oukayh deal!

fyi aq mmg sgt pantang dcabar...dlu larh...
aq pown try my luck...last2 dpt....!
hell ouh!tht girl sgt2 senang... i mean she agreed ble aq ajak couple...
my feeling at tht tym sgt strange...seriusly....
after few month dye apply jd pengawas, so aq cam chill jela...
tp makin hari dye makin poyo....
shit again!
she is so not my type anymore! m done wif u gurl....

pastu konon2 frust ar....sedeyh2...dorg knlkn aq dgn mne2 gurl tah...
tp aq tanak...mb cuz aq still trauma kowt...ceyh! trauma ap kaw???
then few month later ad plak sowg gurl neyh bwu msuk skool...
bleyh thn ar...so aq pown try luck lg...
dpt jgk....wuhuuuu! :)) budget handsome plak da.....
tp ta lme cuz aq dpt twu dye da ad pengkid....shit!
1st tym ptus cuz org ke-3....frust gyla larh....
then aq decide na single.........

borink2

So many things to do but so little time. Sometimes I just think that life is unfair. People assume that I have a wonderful life, they don’t really know how it feels to be in my shoes. Don’t comment on something that you never experienced, that will make you looks like a total fool. Growing up was suppose to be fun and adventure but then for me.

Trying to survive in this materialistic and technological world. Money is an issue everywhere, people are willing to kill just because of money. Well, now we know how important is money nowadays. Now I realize that we can’t really trust everyone around us. The only person you can trust is yourself, because only you know who you are. Other people don’t have the right to insult you or whatever so on. Friend??? Is there any best friend out there? The answer is ‘None’!! you can lost your ‘best friend in a sec. I’ve lost mine.

Heh! So hurtful to think bout that, just imagine a person that you trust, love and always share your problem with could just turn their back to you. Can you imagine that?? Everything is wrong I don’t know how to fix it. How??? My feeling right now is total mess up.. I don’t have anyone to talk to, really make me tense and always feel down. If I wan to list all of my problem then it wont be end. Sometimes I just wish that I am a kids, no need to think of all the problem. Alhamdullilah I was born in a pure Islam family. But then I am the one should decide how to live my life. Am I that bad? Well, maybe..