oukayh... i've been thinking about all this since like forever...its just not right..i know once i did ignore whatever people say or think but its not about what u think or what my friends or my family think...its about what i think how i think & whats best 4 me...im searching 4 myself, ive lost it...i need to get my grip 2gether...i xpenah menyesal about what had happen but i didn't say that i'm totally proud of what i've done...i dun need 2 have any relationship with people if my relationship with ALLAH, my creator was never exists...i'm ashamed to be called as muslim not because d religion, but because i'm not practicing d muslim norm.. i wanna be a muslim with d dignity doin what i am supposed 2 do...