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salam....
apa yang bakal aku tulis neyh tade kna mengene dg sape2 pown..... Bismillahirramannirhim....
here goes....

ap yg aku cr dlm hidup??apa? renung balik ap yg aku ad...
Anyra Zainudin....itu aku...umo 22 tp slalu je disalahertikan umurku itu...
kate mereka aku nampak mude...ta mcm 22...mcm 18 saje... alhamdullillah...
neyh kurniaan Allah... My Creator.... aku besyukur.... sgguh neyh...ta tipu...
ya Allah aku mohon agar aku ta leka ta lupe ta alpa...kenape???
cuz skali aku lupe alpa n leka
aku takot aku bongkak sombong dgn pinjaman Mu ini ya Allah...
m not religious nt perfect nt pious...i am just a ordinary normal simple girl... Thank u Allah...

na thu rahsia mude???aku ta pkai susuk or vitamin c collagen or watever...wallahi... 1 word.... AIR, WATER....air ap?? segala air yg ad...air kosong....minum...yg paling penting...wudhuk! sgt2 PENTING....tu larh susuk collagen yg paling MUJARAB! insyaAllah...

1 mase dulu aku alpa, leka dgn dunia aku...i forgot who m i...i tend to do watever i want w/out even care about wat other people think or sya even my fams...aku marah mereka...aku merajuk kononnye mereka ta fhm aku...hakikatnya aku yg lupe...lupe asal usul ku...darah dagingku... Islam pegangan agamaku...

ya Allah......1 hari aku sedar....aku menangis....aku sujud....terase diri ini kotor...jijik melihat diri aku sendiri...walllahi...aku jijik...aku kotor....ap yg aku lakukan????? aku yg dulu slalu rindu na betemu dgn penciptaku hilang.....aku ta lg solat...aku bwat hukumku sendiri...aku mengejar bahagia dunia...aku biarkan bahagia akhirat...
ya Allah aku ta layak utuk syurgaMu tp aku ta sanggup ke nerakaMU.... kini aku terase makin dgn Dia....sedekat mne aku ta pasti...tp yg penting aku rindu....sangat2 rindu...
aku sentiasa cr waktu utk mama....spend most of my time wif her...mama je yg aku ad.... aku na spend every free tym tht i hv wif her...itu lebeyh baek dr lepaq2 kn??? dgn kakak2 ku??? well, honestly sis zyra agak rapat dgn i...alhamdulillah..pape je mesty ktorg call each other...she whud call me or even just text tp 2 da ckup cuz tht shows tht she care 4 me...she recognized me as her baby sister...thts more than enuff... aku plak suke je sakat2 dye...eyh sakat2 manje...hehehe...klaka kayh..pluis since we hv our boutique 2gether...best oukayh! pegy meniage sesame...kna ngorat sesame...ahahahaha~ sape kate anak pn sarifah n en zainudin ta menawan???aaaa????? lempang...huhuhuhu...
as 4 my 2 brothers... mmg kami ta rapat...my 1st bro dye a bit serius...tp dye care...abang slalu tnye mama about me...hw am i doin...oukayh ke x...thts enuf 4 me 2 knw tht he care 4 his baby sisiter...alhamdulillah....my 2nd bro?? uda neyh kasar a bit...so aku mmg ta gemar..but from his action i knw...trust me i knw dye syg aku.... :'( teharu... sume pown syg..... abg, uda, k.zyra....! nina sayang korang sume!!!!! ya Allah type neyh pown aku da sebak...bayangkan if dorg ad depan mate...aku GELAK!!! oiii! akukan brutal...mwahahaha... xpe2 bia dorg tatawu asalkan Allah twu betapa aku syg gyla kt dorg.... <3>

sis....wat happen to u???wat happen 2 us???we used 2 be really close....we talked we laughed we hang out 2gether....now???? wat happen???? we no longer even say hye... :(
but i still luv u...smpai ble2... insyaAllah....

as i see my life now...i have lyke almost everything...every single thing...even ta larh dasat sgt but then i chud smile...waking up in d morning i chud smile & dun hv any worries...
I'm a student...degree student...m proud of that...my course?? BA(hons)English For Professional Communication.... watever i want ill get it...so far.. :)
Thank you Allah....

so puan-puan, kite tade alasan tuk ta besyukur ek...
tiap kali kaw tadah tgn, sujud or bile2 je yg kaw teringat...cmon say Thank You Allah...ta susa ta payah....Dia Maha Mengetahui... so juz tadah tgn & PRAY...