my story

na tawu ta???
suddenly aq tengat kisah lalu...eceh! lempang~
no, seriusly aq tengat ouh...i mean aq yg dlu...
aq yg tomboy,aq yg pengkid....
mesty kowg ta caye kn???
yahp! m once a tomboy....once a pengkid....wats d diff between tomboy & pengkid?
according to my understanding...
tomboy is a girl which dress up lyke a boy...
pengkid is a girl who dress up lyke a girl & lyke girls...
me?
i was once both...

i am so used to short hair...y?well, since i ws in primary skool which is a Chinese skool i hv 2 keep my hair short..y? hell yah y? idk...weird law...
when i was in form 3, i joined d taekwondo club...
since then i jd makin kasar n i usually will dress up lyke boys do...
baggy pants, dc shoes...aq mnat skate, hip hop n blablabla....
watever so on larh.. my hair mmg sgt2 short...
uish! funny ouh..

anyway, tht was my "tomboy" xperience...at that tym i dun lyke boys....
haha...typical kn?
then msuk form 1 konon2 na berubah...i start simpan rmbut pjg, pkai bj kurung...
tp jap je...2 3 month after that... tgn da rimas...kpl asek gatal...alasan tanak rmbut pjg...
pastu pakse mama bwk pegy ptg...
kali neyh ta pendek sgt cuz mama da warning awal2 if na ptg taleyh pendek...
oukayh bt still i manage 2 make it look boyish...
shit!
pastu aq rapat dgn these 2 tomboy jgk, chinese n indian...
yg chinese tu mmg da kire hardcore larh....
i oukayh lg beb...dye da ad aweks...
huhuw...

1 day dorg cabar aq

dorg : i dare u tackle d new girl.....
me : korg igt aq lesbo ke?
dorg : takot eyh?
me : shit! oukayh deal!

fyi aq mmg sgt pantang dcabar...dlu larh...
aq pown try my luck...last2 dpt....!
hell ouh!tht girl sgt2 senang... i mean she agreed ble aq ajak couple...
my feeling at tht tym sgt strange...seriusly....
after few month dye apply jd pengawas, so aq cam chill jela...
tp makin hari dye makin poyo....
shit again!
she is so not my type anymore! m done wif u gurl....

pastu konon2 frust ar....sedeyh2...dorg knlkn aq dgn mne2 gurl tah...
tp aq tanak...mb cuz aq still trauma kowt...ceyh! trauma ap kaw???
then few month later ad plak sowg gurl neyh bwu msuk skool...
bleyh thn ar...so aq pown try luck lg...
dpt jgk....wuhuuuu! :)) budget handsome plak da.....
tp ta lme cuz aq dpt twu dye da ad pengkid....shit!
1st tym ptus cuz org ke-3....frust gyla larh....
then aq decide na single.........

borink2

So many things to do but so little time. Sometimes I just think that life is unfair. People assume that I have a wonderful life, they don’t really know how it feels to be in my shoes. Don’t comment on something that you never experienced, that will make you looks like a total fool. Growing up was suppose to be fun and adventure but then for me.

Trying to survive in this materialistic and technological world. Money is an issue everywhere, people are willing to kill just because of money. Well, now we know how important is money nowadays. Now I realize that we can’t really trust everyone around us. The only person you can trust is yourself, because only you know who you are. Other people don’t have the right to insult you or whatever so on. Friend??? Is there any best friend out there? The answer is ‘None’!! you can lost your ‘best friend in a sec. I’ve lost mine.

Heh! So hurtful to think bout that, just imagine a person that you trust, love and always share your problem with could just turn their back to you. Can you imagine that?? Everything is wrong I don’t know how to fix it. How??? My feeling right now is total mess up.. I don’t have anyone to talk to, really make me tense and always feel down. If I wan to list all of my problem then it wont be end. Sometimes I just wish that I am a kids, no need to think of all the problem. Alhamdullilah I was born in a pure Islam family. But then I am the one should decide how to live my life. Am I that bad? Well, maybe..

mood : none

oukayh, done wif tht "tayar pecah" issues...
geramnyeeeee ble pk...tah larh...
bgn2 je mama tnye

mama : kenapa tayar?
me : hmmm...neyh larh na ckp neyh....
mama : .............
me : ma jgn larh mara, ta sengaja...
mama : tu larh degil...
me : SORRY :(

adooiiii, naseb baek mama ta mara..risaw...
iskkk...

shittttt!

oukayh, i m sooooooo freakin pissed off!
y????
lemme tell u y....
my car....
tayar pecah!!!!!!!
call sana sini tapi sorg pown ta dtg....
shitttttttt!
fine...tanak ckp da ...
end~

iftar @ kLcc

opening pic...hehehe...went 4 my iftar @ kLcc wif my dalink... tadaaa! itu adalah dalink sayee..hehehe..
mama's dish Fire-grilled chicken & portobello
nyummy!
mine.....Crispy honey chipotle chicken crispers...

dating wif my dalink...huhuw~

oukayh, td pas iftar ajak mama pegy coffee bean...
ngidam ouh...
ice cappucino, blueberry muffin....mama nyer




mine! ice blended pure caremel & nutty brownies...nyum2! :)


muke owg ngidam...ouh comel nyeeee...lempang!heheh

end~

hey hey....cmon anyra title no need larh sadis sgt...
well, thats me suke je title sadis2 cani....
huhuw...
anyway....
its over huh?
no...!
its not!
wat???cmon literally it is ryte???
NO!
oukayh fine,so tell me wat happen next?
i still need to wait???
shit!
oryte2! ill wait...
but how long?????
till wat tym?
a month?
3 month?
a year?

im losing my grip.....
seriusly i am......
& 2 u...
i wish u all the best
i cherished every single moment that we have 2gether....
so perfect yet so wrong...

simple je

my blog my way...

i did it my way...

dun lyke it??
dun read...
as simple as that...

^_^v

penat.letih.tired.exhausted.

have u ever felt so tired so exhausted sometimes?
i mean really tired till u cant even open ur eyes?
cant even stand straight?
cant even talk?
hahah...as if...
anyway, my point is I AM DAMN TIRED EXHAUSTED..... :(
so weak.eceh! lempang~

too tired to even think...
i just wish to be somewhere so that i can just chill...
no one chud fuck my life just bcuz they r nt happy with theirs...
pity.....feel sorry for them...
wait! no no no... i dun...
i dun need to...
i shall have pity to those that even care....

cruel am i?
mb...
perhaps...
u make me this way...
thank you....

tadaaaaaa! haaaa...in d previous update i ad ckp yg me, my mum & my sis na break our fast kt luar kn?so here goes...we went to Restaurant Wadi Hadramawt,jalan Ampang..kL...



neyh owg yg excited lebeyh ta pena buke luar...cun gak kn??ahahahah...lempang~

anyway,our table is 31.....motif??saje je...kowt korg tacaye kn....haha...poyo~

yg neyh barbican..its actually arabian nyer carbonate drinks...i da lame ouh na try....kt my uni mmg ad tp cam maluuuuuu je na meli...oiii! malu ke ta mampu???aahahaha...raspberry flavour...yummy2


yg neyh fetush salad...dye cam masam2 sket...sket kate ko??? byk ouh...tp sedap
haaaa....yg neyh mmg larh my fav... Shish Tawooq name dye...btol ke spell camtu??ta sure... huhuw...tp if kt Tarbush lg besh dye bg garlic sauce..
& this is lamb wif rice...dunnoe d full name...mama luv d rice...
me & my nephew, Danish

me & Nafiz....notty sgt ouh ini budak....

last but not least our pic.... my dalink, myself & my sweet sis.... :))
thanks mama! blanje lg kayh laen kali :p

Iftar wif my dalink & my sweetheart :)

salam....
m home, yayyy! :)
ouh yah, finished my cluz at 430 then rushed bak home...
well not actually rushing tho m enjoyin all d way...singing along...smiling....thinking...
anyway...y m so excited to go bak???
its actually bcuz of my dalink mummy...
my mum called me around 2 or smtg the conversation goes a bit lyke this :

me : ye ma?
mama :nina...nina balik hari neyh ke esk pagi?(i start to have this feeling)
me :lepas cluz nina balik ma,knp?
mama : tade, k.zyra pown ad same so ingat na mkn luar...
me : lps cluz nina balik, insyaAllah ma...
mama : oukayh, elok2 bwk kete...

what feeling u ask me??this feeling when u have so much to do & suddenly its lyke someone help u & its all done...the feeling of relieved or smtg...i just chudnt explain...
so i just cant wait to go home...
then once i reach home i saw mama's car so means she is in....
so i took my luggage & go in d house but it was quiet as if no one is in it...
so i walked in & gv salam... suddenly mama said out loud

"ooooo...anak saya da balik, sy igt org laen.." to our helper kak imah...

i was so happy to hear that seems lyke she is so happy m home... :))

then we waited 4 azan & we break our fast & then went out....

what r u trying to do.....?

salam...
what r u trying to do??
mind to explain???
i juz dun get it...
u r too bz pointing finger at people but u 4got that d other 3 r pointing bak at ya!
funny how u see thing....
u juz say whatever u want without thinking about the consequences...
what r u trying to do??
making people feel bad about themselves and then what?
what do u get in return?
still i dun have any idea of what r u trying to do.....
hummmm...
or perhaps thats d only way u chud hide ur feebleness??
well i gotta admit it kind of working...
but in a very short period of cuz...
cherish every moment of ur victory....
laugh as much as u can...
scream as loud as u want...
im juz gonna watch what will happen till the end....

puase

any minutes now....ta sabaaaaaa!! cuz y?? 2day rase cam sgt2 exhausted, na msk pown malesh...yer i ngaku i malesh...huhuw...
anyway, happy bebuke...!

suddenly ku terpikir

salam....
apa yang bakal aku tulis neyh tade kna mengene dg sape2 pown..... Bismillahirramannirhim....
here goes....

ap yg aku cr dlm hidup??apa? renung balik ap yg aku ad...
Anyra Zainudin....itu aku...umo 22 tp slalu je disalahertikan umurku itu...
kate mereka aku nampak mude...ta mcm 22...mcm 18 saje... alhamdullillah...
neyh kurniaan Allah... My Creator.... aku besyukur.... sgguh neyh...ta tipu...
ya Allah aku mohon agar aku ta leka ta lupe ta alpa...kenape???
cuz skali aku lupe alpa n leka
aku takot aku bongkak sombong dgn pinjaman Mu ini ya Allah...
m not religious nt perfect nt pious...i am just a ordinary normal simple girl... Thank u Allah...

na thu rahsia mude???aku ta pkai susuk or vitamin c collagen or watever...wallahi... 1 word.... AIR, WATER....air ap?? segala air yg ad...air kosong....minum...yg paling penting...wudhuk! sgt2 PENTING....tu larh susuk collagen yg paling MUJARAB! insyaAllah...

1 mase dulu aku alpa, leka dgn dunia aku...i forgot who m i...i tend to do watever i want w/out even care about wat other people think or sya even my fams...aku marah mereka...aku merajuk kononnye mereka ta fhm aku...hakikatnya aku yg lupe...lupe asal usul ku...darah dagingku... Islam pegangan agamaku...

ya Allah......1 hari aku sedar....aku menangis....aku sujud....terase diri ini kotor...jijik melihat diri aku sendiri...walllahi...aku jijik...aku kotor....ap yg aku lakukan????? aku yg dulu slalu rindu na betemu dgn penciptaku hilang.....aku ta lg solat...aku bwat hukumku sendiri...aku mengejar bahagia dunia...aku biarkan bahagia akhirat...
ya Allah aku ta layak utuk syurgaMu tp aku ta sanggup ke nerakaMU.... kini aku terase makin dgn Dia....sedekat mne aku ta pasti...tp yg penting aku rindu....sangat2 rindu...
aku sentiasa cr waktu utk mama....spend most of my time wif her...mama je yg aku ad.... aku na spend every free tym tht i hv wif her...itu lebeyh baek dr lepaq2 kn??? dgn kakak2 ku??? well, honestly sis zyra agak rapat dgn i...alhamdulillah..pape je mesty ktorg call each other...she whud call me or even just text tp 2 da ckup cuz tht shows tht she care 4 me...she recognized me as her baby sister...thts more than enuff... aku plak suke je sakat2 dye...eyh sakat2 manje...hehehe...klaka kayh..pluis since we hv our boutique 2gether...best oukayh! pegy meniage sesame...kna ngorat sesame...ahahahaha~ sape kate anak pn sarifah n en zainudin ta menawan???aaaa????? lempang...huhuhuhu...
as 4 my 2 brothers... mmg kami ta rapat...my 1st bro dye a bit serius...tp dye care...abang slalu tnye mama about me...hw am i doin...oukayh ke x...thts enuf 4 me 2 knw tht he care 4 his baby sisiter...alhamdulillah....my 2nd bro?? uda neyh kasar a bit...so aku mmg ta gemar..but from his action i knw...trust me i knw dye syg aku.... :'( teharu... sume pown syg..... abg, uda, k.zyra....! nina sayang korang sume!!!!! ya Allah type neyh pown aku da sebak...bayangkan if dorg ad depan mate...aku GELAK!!! oiii! akukan brutal...mwahahaha... xpe2 bia dorg tatawu asalkan Allah twu betapa aku syg gyla kt dorg.... <3>

sis....wat happen to u???wat happen 2 us???we used 2 be really close....we talked we laughed we hang out 2gether....now???? wat happen???? we no longer even say hye... :(
but i still luv u...smpai ble2... insyaAllah....

as i see my life now...i have lyke almost everything...every single thing...even ta larh dasat sgt but then i chud smile...waking up in d morning i chud smile & dun hv any worries...
I'm a student...degree student...m proud of that...my course?? BA(hons)English For Professional Communication.... watever i want ill get it...so far.. :)
Thank you Allah....

so puan-puan, kite tade alasan tuk ta besyukur ek...
tiap kali kaw tadah tgn, sujud or bile2 je yg kaw teringat...cmon say Thank You Allah...ta susa ta payah....Dia Maha Mengetahui... so juz tadah tgn & PRAY...

goin home... ^_^v

salam.... oukayh 2day is d day m goin bak 2 malaysia....ouh sadisnye ayat...ceyh! cam da betaun2 plak tggalkn m'sia...kn aq da kate anyra neyh mmg poyo x igt??haaaaa...skunk kaw percayakah??? harus jgn caye oukayh...

oryte, anyway...mlm td aq mkn mcm2 cuz takot ouh naty duk jln2 pitam plak... means ta larat larh but alhamdulillah ai still stand strong....ececece...apakah???means aku bejaya ar menahan lapa n dahaga... motif??? aku pown ta sure...hahahah
bayangkn pg2 dgn ta sahur(padahal mlm td kaw melantak kn anyra??) aku bgn then mandi then make up(harus ko na cite kn) siap2 tros kuar pegy Ben Tanh Market... ya Allah sgt bets cuz ta ramai org...means??? bleyh shopping dgn tenangnye...sukeeeeeee! :D

alarh tapi ai tanak beli pape sgt da cuz smlm da shopping watever i want so cam da xde request pown...kitorg cr kedai kaen ela neyh tp ta jupe...jln ouh tawaf 1 mkt tuh..last2 naseb baek ouh keterjumpaan jua...ahaks!
mama borong byk gyla kaen oukayh...tp aku ta mnat pown...eceh! kunun2 je kn???? blah!
pastu kami bergerak ke tempat kasut... mamam beli banyakkkkkkkkk gyla kasut...isk! naseb ai kuat iman d dada...oiiii! hentikan kepoyoanmu anyra...lempang~

after pegy tmpat bag plak...haaaaaa! yg neyh mengoda....beg yg ai nak 2 ad plak....hisy! trpakse ai pndg2 jeling2 je...na je suh mama beli tp....tp...tp... cam cian je...byk ouh mama beli...
twu ta bag yg mne???? naty ai upload eyh??
ta bleyh na gigi biru cuz gune pc hotel...i ta bwk lappy pown...sje na bg scandal2 ai kerinduan...
alamak! sorry sayang! :p

oukayh, flight around 7pm so seems lyke ktorg akan buke pose in d cabin....yayyy!
y?
cuz smlm ai ta dpt my ferrero roache...ouh ta aci...so rini na mtk byk2! yes2! ceyh! cam bleyh ye x???
bweeeekkkkk! jgn jeles bleyh?
anyway, naty da smpai uma i upload all d pic yah! till then sabau yer..
daaaaaa~ muahx!

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y

yayyyy! at last...since that very day i xdpt na jejak kn kaki kt tanah vietnam...ouh sedeyh.... :(
na bwat cane kn idup as a student neyh mmg mencabar ouh...jgn tatawu...
yg penting redha...ceyh! apakah kamoo neyh anyra???

oukayh2, na story sat, m at d luvly land of vietnam d Ho Chi Minh City...
HEAVEN!!! lalalalaal~ heheh...flight was at 245 td...we arrived here around 5 camtu...tros cr hotel.smpai2 je kt hotel fully booked palk da....aaaaaa.....tamao2!
pastu tepakse menapak cr hotel laen...sadis kn? kn? kn?
naseb baek hotel apekenamenyetah ad kosong.... :) (:

oukayh, so dr atas flight td da asek tepk na meli bag bawu....
hahahahaha...mesty mama menyesal ajak pegy kn?
eyh, mane bleyh ai kn anak kesayangan dye???kn mama kn??? lempang...

pas check in hotel mmg ta tggu da tros je trun menapak cr barang...
tgk typical girl....so wat????
we all pegy boutique baju kurung... mama borong mcm2...
me???
ehem2...
borong jugak larh tapi....mama yang baya..hahahah! ampun.... :p
ai borong jubah & baju raya...alololololo~
m a girl larh...mne bleyh ta shopping....

then we went to so called "uptown"...borong lg.....
bag plak...isk2....
ill upload d pic later2 eyh...once i get bak 2 kL perhaps...

yawn*

ouh very very d sleepy..iskkkk...tasuke tasuke... sleepy sgt ouh... tu je na ckp~ *yawn*
na tdow....

tired....

penat ouh...tired sangat2......i ta faham langsung....no wait, bukan ta faham tapi geram...
huh?apakah???i ta salah pape...kami jumpe lepas dorg da tade pape...salah i ke??? then suddenly u came back....ap neyh?? then u tuduh i rampas dye dari u....knp camtu??i tatawu watever happens between u guys...tp i knw tht u yg beria tggalkn dye....now ble u thu ad org laen dgn dye u dtg blk, u suh plak i tggalkan dye...senangnye kn??cmon larh jgn selfish...i pown ad haty....i bukan kucing yg u bleyh halau camtu je...hummm....

salam...

salam??adkah i kedengaran baek???tah??ye kowt...
anyway, blog neyh i bwat cuz i na luahkan everything... tade niyat na saketkan haty sesape pown but if tersaket haty gak i really m sorry...anda tapelu bace blog neyh lg... tapikan for me i need something or some place for me to let it all out...i bukan superwoman...haih even superwoman needs to let it out sometime....agree?? look, i akui kdg2 all those swearing words yg i gune sgt2 kasar....tapi neyh blog i.....if korg ta suke tapaya bace...i dun mind....please be open minded bleyh ta? close minded is gud sometimes...org tgh mara..naseb i bukan jenis yg hantuk2 kpl kt dinding then sepak2 org....no, m not lyke tht i just na let it out...have u ever feel cam tired sgt2?? with all ur problem???i do...so please bagi i ruang tuk let it out...thanks :)

wat is ur problem???

ya Allah....y u talk to her tht way??? respect larh weyh....x baek ouh.....sgt x baek.....have u ever think of her feeling??? please larh.....jangan maen ckp ikut sedap mulut je....pity her larh.... tu je i nk pesan jaga haty dye ouh naty u all menyesal...

happy tp saket ouh..

ya Allah.....my fav words nowadays....reason???? only Allah knows.....i need that so bad....sangat2... y? cuz m sinking...in this weird complicated shitty world...oiii, saba larh...biar i explain...shitty y?? people all around yg jdkn ianya shitty larh....u got wat i mean ryte???i really dun understand people yg susa payah duk ckp sal org laen padahal diri dye x perfect pown....no one is perfect sweety....tolong larh jgn nk salahkan org laen atas slah ko...isk isk isk....not gud ha u...ap larh.... m trying to build up my faith....solat jgn lupe ye kawan2....luv ya!

he came... :)

yayy.....!

yayyyyyy! esok i adalah xde cluz....... makseh!

Ne-Yo

Never Knew I Needed Lyrics

(ooh) for the way you changed my plans
for being the perfect distraction
for the way you took the idea that i have
of everything that i wanted to have
and made me see there was something missing (oh yeah)
for the ending of my first begin
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
and for the rare and unexpected friend
(ooh yeah yeah)(ooh yeah yeah)
for the way you're something that i never choose
but at the same time something i don't wanna lose
and never wanna be without ever again (oh oh)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed
so now it's so clear i need you here always

my accidental happily (ever after) (oh oh oh)
the way you smile and how you comfort me (with your laughter)
i must admit you were not a part of my book
but now if you open it up and take a look
you're the beginning and the end of every chapter (oh oh)

you're the best thing i never knew i needed (oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
http://www.elyricsworld.com/never_knew_i_needed_lyrics_ne-yo.html
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (that i needed)
so now it's so clear i need you here always

who knew that I could be here (who knew that i could be here oh oh)
so unexpectedly (so unexpectedly oh oh)
undeniablely happy (hey)
said with you right here, right here next to me (oh)

girl you're the..
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (said i needed oh oh)
so when you were here i had no idea
you're the best thing i never knew i needed (needed oh)
so now it's so clear i need you here always
baby baby
now it's so clear i need you here always

maxi is gone :(

sobsobsob...maxi is gone....reason? paru2 berair...hummmm....
maxi is my bro's cat...i luv cats! kitten also...tp i alergic...ngade kn?
pape pown...maxi i luv uuuu...take care...